Come Down To Me

I will come back

2010-02-15T22:56:00.001+08:00

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Foreign

2009-12-27T00:40:00.002+08:00

It feels foreign to write in here.

Belated Picture Birthday

2009-11-15T21:56:00.001+08:00

:]

I have no idea how to convert the video to the right format. Will figure it out soon.

23rd November 2009

2009-09-08T14:40:00.004+08:00

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I thought maybe i should have a proper goodbye. But me and goodbye, well, it will just makes me come back more. But, the determination in me will stay for long. That, im sure. If i need to ramble, i might just use other avenue. So yes, ill say Goodbye to Blogger.. and Facebook.

See you guys on 23rd November 2009.

To all:
Mug real hard and do this right. Barely 11 more weeks. 11 MORE Mondays, Tuesdays bladibla. There is still time. Dont waste it. Do it once. Do it right. Just start now. What do we have to lose right? May we come out from this as a survivor. [:

To friends:
I might.. Might just cancel all outings. Im so sorry. Bare with me for just 11 more weeks ok? After that, we will all go out and hang out like no tomorrow. ♥ Love you guys. I hope you guys can understand what i have to go through. May the sacrifice now i make, eventhough its very late, is worth it.

Inthum Outing! :D

2009-09-05T13:05:00.000+08:00

1st outing 17/22 people turn up. (:

The girls! Fiona left earlier.

DUCKS! :D W/O JingCheng

Love this shot. [:

May the friendship continue to blossom. :D

Will edit this soon. Have to studddyyyy. [:

Shows how much i cannot wait

2009-09-02T23:19:00.000+08:00

September 24, 2009

In The Midnight Hour

2009-09-01T23:42:00.000+08:00

"Sleep. It's the easiest thing to do. You just... close your eyes. But for so many of us, sleep seems out of our grasp. We want it, but, we don't know how to get it. But once we face our demons, face our fears, and turn to each other for help, night time is not so scary, because we realize, we are not all alone in the dark."

Women..

2009-08-27T02:58:00.003+08:00

Explains why we women are so women.. Haha!

NICKNAMES

If Mike, Dave and John go out, they will affectionately refer to each other as Fat Boy, Godzilla and Four-eyes.
If Laura, Kate and Sarah go out for lunch, they will call each other Laura, Kate and Sarah.

EATING OUT

When the bill arrives, Mike, Dave and John will each throw in $20, even though it's only for $32.50. None of them will have anything smaller and none will actually admit they want change back.
When the girls get their bill, out come the pocket calculators.

MONEY

A man will pay $2 for a $1 item he needs.
A woman will pay $1 for a $2 item that she doesn't need but it's on sale.

BATHROOMS

A man has six items in his bathroom: toothbrush and toothpaste, shaving cream, razor, a bar of soap, and a towel .
The average number of items in the typical woman's bathroom is 337. A man would not be able to identify more than 20 of these items.

ARGUMENTS

A woman has the last word in any argument.
Anything a man says after that is the beginning of a new argument.

FUTURE

A woman worries about the future until she gets a husband.
A man never worries about the future until he gets a wife.

SUCCESS

A successful man is one who makes more money than his wife can spend.
A successful woman is one who can find such a man.

MARRIAGE

A woman marries a man expecting he will change, but he doesn't.
A man marries a woman expecting that she won't change, but she does.

DRESSING UP

A woman will dress up to go shopping, water the plants, empty the trash, answer the phone, read a book, and get the mail.
A man will dress up for weddings and funerals.

NATURAL

Men wake up as good-looking as they went to bed.
Women somehow deteriorate during the night.

OFFSPRING

Ah, children. A woman knows all about her children. She knows about dentist appointments and romances, best friends, favorite foods, secret fears and hopes and dreams.
A man is vaguely aware of some short people living in the house.

GREYS SEASON 6 COME FAST!

2009-08-22T14:15:00.001+08:00

Title explains it all.

26th Sept! 1 month to go.

Ramadhan

2009-08-22T12:19:00.002+08:00

Bulan Mulia sudah tiba! (:

Selamat Berpuasa semua.

Gunakan peluang ini untuk menjadi seorang insan yang diredhaiNya.

Amin.

I wonder

2009-08-21T20:30:00.001+08:00

I survived today.
I survived the week.

Will i continue to survive the next week?
& the next month?

Btw, Selamat Berpuasa. (:

Prelims

2009-08-17T11:34:00.003+08:00

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GOOD LUCK TO ALL FOR PRELIMS.

Its just the prelims.
Its just the prelims.
Its just the prelims.
Its just the prelims.
Its just the prelims.
Its just the prelims.
Its just the prelims.
Its just the prelims.
Its just the prelims.

Im scared. I thought i was fine, feeling ok. But the moment i woke up today, i realized i have so much to do. I have yet to memorize properly Cold War, Global Economy. Yet to touch Inorganic Chem, extremely not confident of Phy & Org Chem. Suddenly my pure maths is like shit and i wonder how i have been passing reasonably well for maths for the past 1.5yrs. My malay is going nowhere. I have been trying to keep up but i dont think its enough as compared to hundreds of superb Malay students out there. My self-esteem was reached 0 now. When im left with merely 20hrs to my 1st Malay paper. ):

Plus, my laptop break down. Now using my brother's computer. I choose to believe its a good sign. Ill only worry about it after prelims is over. Because i need to fix it before Grey's season 6 comes back! (: So now, no distraction. Such a pity that i cannot blog and ramble and use all the vocab ive learnt to use. Not here.

someone unexpected make me read this

2009-08-12T16:33:00.003+08:00

Girl: Do you think I’m pretty?
Boy: No
Girl: Do I ever cross your mind?
Boy: No
Girl: Do you like me?
Boy: No
Girl: Do you want me?
Boy: No
Girl: Would you cry if I left?
Boy: No
Girl: Would you do anything for me?
Boy: No way.
Girl: What would you choose, your life or mine?
Boy: My life
The girl runs off crying in pain and the boy runs after her, grabs her, and tells her:

The reason you’re not pretty is cause you’re beautiful
The reason you never cross my mind is cause you’re always on my mind
The reason I don’t like you is cause I love you
The reason I don’t want you is cause I need you
The reason I won’t cry if you left is cause I’d die
The reason I won’t do anything for you is cause I’d do everything for you
The reason I’d chose my life is cause you are my life

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HAHA! DAMN FUNNY. HAHAHAHHA. Ok. The note is not funny. Really really. Omg. Studying has made me really not sane.

Today, sms convo with Nadiah clearly shows how mentally unsound i am. Haha! Apparently whatever i want to say and what i text is totally not the same. AHH!!

A great smile makes a big difference

2009-08-10T13:15:00.005+08:00

"A great smile makes a big difference"

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TAG REPLIES:

iezah: Haha! Finally i can sms you proper. (: You guys are not quarantined lah! Why you all want to get quarantined?! haha! I myself wouldnt want that! Now i have to take care of the sick brother. Haha. But im NOT a kecoh person. So, it should be fine without me. Plus, i had an annoying thought that THAT was the last class outing ever. And its really disturbing. ):

lydia: HAHA. Its because you both are really annoying in trying to prove me who is cuter! Haha!

nadiah: This is FUN! Dont you agree?

iezah: Must side me! Choose me me me!

Jhan: So you DO read my blog?! You stalker! Haha! Thanks ah. Thanks.

zhaopeng: I almost did. And i might again.. Haha.

lydia: HAHA! WTH! Great assumption. [Kes takde kerja cari kerja ni]

Very much afraid

2009-08-08T21:31:00.004+08:00

What if i dont survive this ordeal?

Will there be anyone out there to save me?

I feel insecure.

So much.

So much for the recent optimism..

POLL

2009-08-08T00:01:00.003+08:00

POLL:

WHO IS CUTER:
1. LYDIA BTE JAMIL
2. NUR NADIAH BTE RAZNI

TAG ON MY TAGBOARD! Ill try to create a poll ASAP!

Close, but not close enough

2009-08-07T07:46:00.001+08:00

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I can almost see it
That dream I'm dreaming but
There's a voice inside my head sayin,
You'll never reach it,
Every step I'm taking,
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking but I
Got to keep trying
Got to keep my head held high

Unprepared

2009-08-06T22:54:00.006+08:00

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2009. This year is the year i have grown. I experienced emotional events that has never occured to me before. Ive learnt to control my emotions. Ive learnt to be happy and smile. The people around me has helped me through the roughest time. I thank God for all of that. (:

I have learnt to prioritize and in the midst of doing all of that, i have neglected things im not suppose to neglect. Forget things im suppose to remember. I wonder how all this can happen. But am i at wrong for all of that? I dont know. Maybe i am. But hell, there has been many drama mama in my life now that i cannot think of everything in a short span of time. Ive tried. But sooner than expected, i break down. Haha.

Sorry to all whom i throw tantrums today. My fault. I do hate my jumbled up emotions. But thanks to all who are still willing to hear and endure..

1 weeks to prelim and im not ready. (:

What makes me real sad is that my brother will miss his Council Investiture.. I think its a big thing. And missing the moment when you officially step up.. Is sad. ):

PS: I slept throughtout the night while studying. Am i that tired?
PSS: I will miss class outing, study sessions.. Shiqah is sad.
PSSS: Shiqah thinks coffee doesnt work anymore. I drank 3 cups yesterday and still fall asleep while studying. How?!

A Day in JJC

2009-08-05T17:14:00.003+08:00

In the midst of hardcore preparation...

In Mr Yuen's Last lesson before Prelims. & We celebrated his birthday! So impromptu and i had to run, YES RUN, to get muffins.

See how lovey dovey Nadiah & Dejun looks like. Yana will hate me, for sure. Nadiah too. I miss hanging out with all of them. Seriously, now, there isnt any time that we ever hang out anymore. ): Hopefully the class outing will be a success.

Today Mr Sia is funny. :D

Back to mugging. Lucks people!

If there's just one piece of advice i can give you, it's this -
when there's something you really want,
fight for it,
don't give up no matter how hopeless it seems.
And when you've lost hope...
ask yourself if 10 years from now,
you're gonna wish you gave it just one more shot.
because the best things in life...
they don't come free.

take the leap?

2009-08-03T23:05:00.003+08:00

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Should i hang on? Or take the leap and let nature decides it all?

I wonder how anyone endure this long..

I want to just sleep.

& live in bliss.

"either you're completely healthy or completely messed up"

Big or Small?

2009-08-03T14:08:00.004+08:00

Oh. So. Big.
You never know the biggest day of your life..
is the biggest day.
Not until it's happening.
You don't recognize the biggest day of your life,
until you're right in the middle of it.
The day you commit to someone or something.
The day you get your heart broken.
The day you meet your soul mate.
The day you realize there's not enough time,
because you want to live forever.
Those are the biggest days.
The perfect days.
You know?

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SEE THIS!

Totally reminds me of Korea & the struggle being a Transport person who must find the fastest way to get to a station when there are TONS of ways to get to the place.

smile

2009-08-01T19:43:00.003+08:00

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Smile, and the world will smile with you.

My happiness comes when people around me are happy. (:

United

2009-08-01T02:16:00.003+08:00

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TAG REPLIES:

yana: I did fine for the 4 days i was alone at home. (: Haha!

zhaopeng: tell Derek what?! What Nadiah?! Tag what??!! Omg. I totally cannot remember what we talked about until u come out with this tag! ):

fatin: Hello! :D You're welcome!

yana: :D:D:D

zubbie: yeah, i miss you too! Its been like 3 weeks already! Going to be 1 month since i met you! ):

Darsh: YES!!! Surviving, with tons of eyebags.

nadiah: ITS IS DARK! I went to brighten the pics. haha!

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LATEST NEWS:

I HAVE REACHED THE 45KG MARK!

SHIQAH IS NOT THIN ANYMORE!

FINALLY!

2009-07-31T16:22:00.002+08:00

FINALLYYYY! I didnt come to school yesterday. Besides the flu, i just didnt want to go to school and instead, i spend my day sleeping! Finally catching up on my sleep. To my dearest makciks, please sleep more than 4hrs. Dont sleep 2-3hrs eh. I dont want to see eyebags on you all.

AND YES. ITS THE ...

YELLOW YANA'S BIRTHDAY! :D

Its been so long since we all take manymany pictures.

Iezah macam biasa nak act cute.

The hardworking people. Iezah was too distracted with her hp. 'Empunye badan....' HAHA!

& OMG. IEZAH PUNYE SHIOK SENDIRI GAMBAR DGN GUITAR BUKAN MAIN BANYAK.

I should upload them.

TODAY! :D

This is what we did! & the baby bottle & the korean CD & the cheesecake & the lovely surprise with the fake card. :D

Proper birthday wish once that Yellow Yana turns 18 proper.

I miss these moments! Cannot wait for class dinner! I better make sure its a success. Any recommendations for places and/or restaurants?

Study Break

2009-07-31T01:41:00.001+08:00

I want study break already.

Ok. Bye.

Loner

2009-07-29T22:53:00.003+08:00

These are so tiny. Haha.

Ok, besides that, i think studies has made me a loner.

An absolute loner.

Confused

2009-07-28T00:51:00.002+08:00

I keep backspacing.

Swing Swing

2009-07-21T00:19:00.003+08:00

Tell me, what do i do now?
How to remove the mask that has always been a hindrance.
To face everything bravely.

I want the swing.

Merely 4 months left and i am just afraid.
No words of encouragement can help.
So, dont try.

My Fat Cat

2009-07-18T21:24:00.001+08:00

My cat is not eating a lot.

She misses them too.

The Memories

2009-07-17T15:35:00.003+08:00

9 years ago was the last time i saw my Grandmother back in Indonesia. I was in Primary 4 and up till today, i remember my days back there. It was my 1st time meeting my mother's side and they accepted us readily. Those 15 days or so were clearly the best days of my life and i recalled how dreadful it was to leave my kampong. How the whole village gathered to bid us goodbye. We said, we could be back in 5 years time if time permits.

5 years turn to 10 years.

I couldnt communicate well with my Grandmother because she can only speak the native language there. But her presence was sufficient. I love my Grandmoter for who she is.

Up till today, now, i cannot believe this is all happening. Yes, i know her condition was getting worst. But i thought i will have time. Just 6 more months and i can finally see her again. Now, that can never happen. Allah loves her more. My memories of her dated back in 2000. & i will hold on to those memories, like its my life.

Now, i still have to continue praying. For my mother. I wish i am there to be with her. Losing a mother is tragic. At least now, she get to see her mother one last time. Not like back in 1999 where she didnt get to even see the jenazah of arwah datuk. So, yes, for that, i am thankful.

Thank you to those who showed concern for me. Being in school today was a big mistake. I was just not myself, at all. Shiqah apologizes. ):

Semoga Allah mencucurimu. Shiqah sayang Mbah. ):

Her Heart

2009-07-12T20:02:00.000+08:00

credited

ARGH! IM TIRED!

2009-07-10T00:07:00.004+08:00

TAG REPLIES:

zhaopeng: Where is the video? Should upload on FB and just tag Nadiah. I am quiet and reserved. I truly am. Really!!! In 5 years time?! Maybe. Haha. I might surprise everyone. See my mood if i want to invite you. :D Thanks. But sometimes, the best is still not the best. ):

Zhengyi & Derek: Haha! Yes! Its very entertaining!

Zakiah: Edited for your sake. :D You are not alone. See, today i irritate you. You miss me. I know. You didnt give ME the chocs! Dah habis tk salah. Buat penat je kena gunting rambot semua. hahahaha! I love all the pics we take last year! LETS DO SCRAPBOOK!

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Random:

Chemistry and History paper left and these will be my worst nightmare.
I miss JRL Study Sessions.
I comtemplate to go for PSL Dinner this Saturday. So should i go?
My cat is FATTER.
I am tired.
I NEED to complete the Malay Drama today.
Cannot wait for Wednesday MLL Study Session. :D
I love maths.
I hate Nobody English Version.
I want Paddlepop. ):
I hate Miley Cyrus songs. Except The Climb.
Study in school during school time is really productive. But not after.
Ok. I need to study.

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY FATIN LIYANA. :D

Oh, and if you can't hold on
Let it go and come back in your heart
And if you can't hold on
Maybe it's not time for you
And if you can't hold on
On your very last try
I'll be there so you know that you're not alone
Melee - Cant Hold On

08S33 - 2008

2009-07-09T00:04:00.007+08:00

08S33 - 2008

HAHA. What were WE thinking when we agreed to do this for Zakiah?!

Look at Iezah's hair. :D & I miss that watch of mine.

LOOK AT DEJUN'S HAIR! Haha. He was so much cuter then. Now, somehow he has learnt so much from me and has turn his back against me. ): Haha.

I miss picture taking before lessons. This was before Maths lesson. (:

& the day Yanqing got really angry at us!

During PW lesson i think. Nadiah has nothing better to do and did this for ALL of us.

After PW Oral Practice. Hours of searching for YQ & DJ Gift. Really memorable. We went from shops to shops. & Me and Iezah saw something real funny that day. :D

During PW! See Jerome's face!!

I miss Yana's specs! During PW also. Last year's PW is the best lesson. :D

During Dejun Birthday. Back in the days when he was so much nicer. Haha! Must empahasize on this. & See Jerome's face at the back!

Dong Hao Birthday celebration! The day that unites us all.

BEFORE GP COMMON TEST LAST YEAR! When we are stress, we camwhore.

Sports day! I played netball. Omg. I PLAYED NETBALL.

Aww. Mdm Lee! Our class excursion. Best! :D

Raya 2008! Too bad not all 15 of us can make it. This year, i hope that can happen.

[/Edit] That Raya day was Zakiah's Birthday. The birthday was sooo scary and funny but it was really memorable. :D

To think of it, all the birthdays were memorable.
Dong Hao: Sakura! & Marks the start of class bonding. :D
Yana: Pranked her and she fell for it. :D
Yanqing & Dejun: Yanqing was shocked! Dejun saw me carrying a cake. Haha! Gift hunting was truly memorable.
Zakiah: HAHA! This is really scary + funny! Glad everything happen smoothly. :D
Iezah: WE PLAN SOOO HARD FOR IT AND HONG BO MUST SPILL IT ALL OUT BY SAYING 'ENJOY YOUR SURPRISE BRITHDAY PARTY TMR' the day to Iezah through SMS before he went to Korea. Thanks Hong Bo. Hahahha!

I miss 08S33/08S32 hangout time. I really do.

JRL's Picnic

2009-07-08T14:23:00.001+08:00

Study session every other week. (:

& I want to own a good quality camera.

Singapore Botanical Gardens

06/07/09

Results week.

Wake up call.

Bye.

Mr Brown Show

2009-07-06T21:40:00.003+08:00

Wonder Girls - Nobody [But: Wash Your Hands Version! :D ]

National Day Song - Home [But: Mosquito Song Version!]

Get Married. Its the National Duty. Haha!

Credits to Mr Brown Show.

DILEMMA!

2009-07-05T20:00:00.002+08:00

I hate 1 day holiday.
Totally hate it.

I want to go all 3 outings but now i have to choose.
& i tell you, i really, badly, WANT to go for S32 outing!
I think i have neglected them way too much.
I miss them a whole lot! ):
Oh damn. I do miss the S32.
The crazy gila people who loves to bully me as revenge.
I MISS SPENDING TIME WITH THEM W/O THE STUDYING. ):

Totally remind me of how i try my very best to influence all to go for Sakura Dinner on a last minute notice and fork out $30 just for Dong Hao's Birthday. & That was something i have never regretted because i feel like S33 (then) was finally coming together. & the various Birthday Celebrations that is just effing fun shit. I miss those times. ): Remember all the camwhore sessions and how much the guys hated my camera. AHH. PW PW PW. Those S33 moments. I miss that. ):

I cannot NOT go JRL outing. They might just kill me.
But but..

LALALA!

2009-07-05T00:38:00.005+08:00

FIREWORKS IS THE BEST! :D

[Ok, no. Balloons are.]

BUT I LOVE THIS YEAR'S NDP!

Wanted a full sing-a-long session though. Miss all the old National Day Songs.

& I got my PINK Funpack.

& we took such a sloooow time so that Fatin can get her Orange Funpack. :D

Marina Square Each-a-cup gives terrible service.

Cannot wait for Monday. Morn till night!

I need more time.

The thing is, i feel so helpless because i dont know how to help. I feel really lousy. All i can do is pray, and even that, i am not sure if it will help. I am trying my best but i know.. it isnt helping. ):

Bad Feeling

2009-07-03T22:17:00.004+08:00

Besides that, today marks the end of the Midyears, and the beginning of the full force revision for Prelims and Alevel. It does not get any easier. But today, i feel a moment of relieve. The past 2 weeks of constant revision will definitely not pay off since i am very sure i will not do well for certain subjects. But i hope i will have the motivation to move on.

Transformers was a total disappointment. Sorry to die-hard fans out there. But i think, it was just a movie that seems to go on and on and on and i just cannot wait for it to end. Yes, there was humour here and there and those were the moments that i truly enjoy. Other than that, i caught myself almost doozing off. It was a total waste of money. Megan Fox didnt seem to act much! She was there just like to show her face only. So, this movie was not worth my $6.

But meeting them will always be my highlight for the week (whenever i meet them). Tomorrow will also be another highlight. :D

Besides the temporary escape, i feel a sudden guilt and its an uneasy feeling i wish to push aside. I am trying to evaluate but i cannot conclude anything without any concrete evidence. But when it comes to feeling.. we follow our heart right?

Twitter updates whenever possible. Check it out! So should be lesser post and more twitter since i can sms to the service now. & since it is Singtel = Free for me! :D

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TAG REPLIES:

lydia: Haha. I am traumatized nevertheless. Dont want lah! I dont dare. You try. :D Monkeys actually suit ALL of us. See how we behave in the library! NOT JRL. Please. HAHA.

iezah: Im going to change. I get emotional too listening to them! haha! I love graduation songs. Aiya.

zhaopeng: Haha. Remember the quote you always tell me? Self praise is international disgrace. So you think? Ask Derek to send the video of my head banging? It used to be in his blog. So much easier to excess then make him send. Haha. Me & Nadiah have quite different personality please. I am quiet and reserve actually. Aww. Sakae Sakae. Haha. I will not get married first. Haha. I am quite sure he will explode one fine day and there and then, we will be very guilty. Thanks. (: So now im old haggard witch instead of Monkey?

Zakiah: Yeah! Next week onwards our school end all at 1pm. (:

yana: Yes he did. I teared. He is so sweet. ):

Lifehouse - Broken

2009-07-03T20:56:00.001+08:00

The broken clock is a comfort, it helps me sleep tonight
Maybe it can stop tomorrow from stealing all my time
I am here still waiting though i still have my doubts
I am damaged at best, like you've already figured out

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing
With a broken heart that's still beating
In the pain is there is healing
In your name I find meaning
So I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on
I'm barely holdin' on to you

The broken locks were a warning you got inside my head
I tried my best to be guarded, I'm an open book instead
I still see your reflection inside of my eyes
That are looking for a purpose, they're still looking for life

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing
with a broken heart that's still beating
In the pain is there is healing
In your name I find meaning
So I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on
I'm barely holdin' on to you

I'm hangin' on another day
Just to see what you will throw my way
And I'm hanging on to the words you say
You said that I will, I'll be ok

The broken lights on the freeway left me here alone
I may have lost my way now, haven't forgotten my way home

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing
with a broken heart that's still beating
In the pain there is healing
In your name I find meaning
So I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on
I'm barely holdin' on to you

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Lighter

2009-07-01T19:09:00.003+08:00

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Posted this 1 year ago.

Remember to smile. :D

Life will be so much lighter that way.

More of a reminder to self.

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I need to save up now. Because there could be a high possibility i am going back to Indonesia to visit my family there because my grandmother has been very sick nowadays. I hope she will get well or better very soon. & I am really very excited to go back despite the fact that all my friends there is working in the city and prolly ill be the only 18 year old there. Ah. The thoughts of being in my kampong with the chickens and sawah and taik lembu, i dont know why, but i cant wait to be there again. 9 years ago. That was how long i last went there. After Alevel, another thing to do. I hope this will really happen. I can just pray for everyone to be fine and we can afford to go there. I need to do my part too. I am starting.

& talking to my mum brought me back to my roots. How im forgetting to do some things and realize that whatever we do, we must remember God. Never forget Him even once. I need to reinforce that idea in me. I teared. Maybe because i have done too many sins. ):

I know 2009 will be the year. I will pray for the best. For me & for you.

Nostalgic

2009-06-30T22:48:00.002+08:00

I reread my old posts back in November and realized many events happened that has impacted my life in one way or another. I am glad each moment happened because it makes us or even force us to grow and some people are meant to be with you in the long run while others are there to be part of your happiness only.

Promos. Korea Trip. Family. 08S33/32 Birthdays celebration. Tests. Friendship. PSL. Catch-ups. Midyears. Alevel.

I miss planning birthday celebrations. The final one was for Jerome's and that was whole lot of fun. :D I recalled Iezah's birthday celebration which was so NOT a surprise because Hong Bo accidentally sms her 'Have fun at your birthday SURPRISE tomorrow (or something like that).' Hong Bo cannot get any irritating. Haha. Intensive planning was all gone to waste. & How me and Nadiah planned to kill him back in Korea. Haha!

I miss bonding sessions with class. When will be our next class outing? I miss every single one of you. No one to bully me. ):

I MISS 4/3'07. ALL THE BEST TO EVERY ONE OF YOU. Sorry for not being able to make it for the class outing. I watched Thriller MJ MV and i recalled the intensive dance practice we had for the dance performance. Sweet memories. :D I swear i feel like dancing to it and recalled all the steps. :D:D:D

See how nostalgic i can get. I miss NPCC people too. The people. Not the training. Haha.

FRIDAY - TGIF COME FAST!

2009-06-30T20:57:00.005+08:00

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Chemistry.Paper.Disaster. (:
I even told the whole world i will have a party if i pass that paper. That shows how confident i am. Studied, but i feel like i didnt. Life is fair, aint it. :D Not something to be proud of when you have barely 4 months left to As and not everyone can pull off a miracle to jump that much a grade. So, tell me. How do i solve this? I cannot just get A for the rest and U for Chemistry. Its not how the education system here works.

But the 3hr gossip session today was exactly what we need after sooooooo long since we all last talked. (: Iezah, the bet is on. :D Thinking about the future, which can be unexpected, is something to look forward too. & winning the bet, will make life a whole lot sweeter. :D:D:D OH. I cannot wait for the Japanese, Korean, (many many more) shows in each of our house after As. WEEEEE!!

I want the 5 of us to meet together after Midyears for maybe just lunch after school. Or another movie. The last movie we all watched was that 'He's Just Not That Into You' and that was in Feb. Thats how long since we had a clique outing outside school. I hope it will happen. But well, we will see. :D I miss this kind of random posts that explains how my day is.

I want the cakes. I want food. I want more food. Why am i still not gaining weight?!

FRIDAY FRIDAY FRIDAY. I want the temporary escape till Saturday before getting back to serious business on Sunday.

Harper's Island

2009-06-29T12:03:00.004+08:00

HARPER'S ISLAND

WHY MUST HE DIE?! ):

I was disturbed watching it last night
+ too afraid of today's maths paper
+ sleep too much in the morning
= cannot sleep at night

Thank goodness i can wake up today. Now have to mug for chem! :D

1 down, 2 to go!

FRIDAY! TRANSFORMERS (i know im slow)! I CANT WAIT! :D:D:D

Mid-Years

2009-06-28T15:02:00.002+08:00

I Dont Want School To Start.

Need. More. Study. Time.

Good Luck to ALL for Midyears.

Not ready. Not prepared. Not. Just Not.

Help.

(still unnamed)

2009-06-27T04:58:00.002+08:00

Today.

Yesterday.

Its 5AM in the morning and i am trying to put alllll the Chemistry terms into this brain. Too many theory we came out with that i have the urge to do to make my job sooo much easier. You wouldnt want to know what Lydia can come out with. :D Studying is really really exhausting. I just keep repeating that this will be the last year i am mugging like mad. Last last time. So give my all. Get that As, get into university, prove you are worth something.

I.Am.Still.Traumatized.By.Human.Monkey. haha! [to all: written already! I dont know what to blog about this lah!]

I miss studying with them already. Hopefully i can make it tomorrow earlier for study sessions again. We need a group name! JRL isnt approve by all yet lah Lydia. Kan kan?! Monkeys. I think its a perfect name for us with our behaviour in the library. (: Please. [I think i create a bad name in Lib already. ): ]

Ok. Back to mugging! Oh. I was shocked to hear the news MJ passed away. It was sudden and i was more traumatized that both Nadiah and Lydia didnt know about it AT ALL with it was already 3pm. Haha.

Zhaopeng, here is your reply!

All evil people have their good sides too ok. Not all good people are 100% good and vice versa. :D HAHA. I want to see that video again! Me and Nadiah made the 1st dumb thing in Korea and coincidentally you guys MUST be there infront of me and record it in action. Damn argh!! YES YES! Seaweeds! Im craving for more seaweeds now! ): It was a lot a lot ah?! I remember the shopkeeper look at me weirdly or something then, you all ask me to keep quiet but i was too excited to NOT be quiet. haha! Oh common, you will get married first. Everyone will get married first. :D SOO FUN! YES YES. haha! Encore. :D Imagine him older and doing it.. I think THIS, karma will get back to us and he will soooon learn to bully us back. Haha! Luckily my phone died or else, i will start getting all excited over rich people and ure ears WILL bleed, for sure. You will be earless tomorrow. Imagine that. haha! 16 weeks! YES. THEN WE CAN GO KOREA BACK. (with hope money drops from the sky).

Drink it in. (:

2009-06-25T01:02:00.003+08:00

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A quote from Grey's Anatomy.

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TAG REPLIES:

lydia: That was last year's story. Haha. When we miss our PAE days too much. But its ok. Now we all are library buddy! Haha! + MLL Buddy + Korea Halal People! :D:D:D

zhaopeng: First and foremost, thank you for the never ending effort of tagging on my tagboard and making it super duper long. So here i am, replying to it all. (: I miss Incheon Airport!! Remember the day we were very late and almost miss the flight? We all were practically running everywhere! Ah, it was so memorable! REAL SNOW! yes! Not the 5 seconds one where i got excited (too excited) and the snow stops. I think it got scared of my excitedness (ok, lame). :D haha! Weddings are fun! Everyone is getting hitched or married or something like that. So, its just a passing thought! Must invite the Korea people! Then Derek can do his Nobody dance!! :D Haha! We must share our meanness so it can spread to all. Being a witch is real cool please. HAHA.

Zakiah: Haha! I was not! They must plan OC outing infront of me! When clearly they know im going to the library the next day also. Haha. I have great friends. :D:D:D Grrr.

nadiah: You sure u want zhaopeng to tag? See how long i must reply him. haha!! i can give u a super long tag if you want. (being nice here)

jin xiang: HELLLLOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!! Thank you for dropping by! :D:D:D

yana: Haha! I know. Well known fact since forever kan. (:

Zakiah: COOL KAN! Library sejuk gila nak mampos. So we brought ALL that.

lydia: EH EH! When we bringing all that again. Then we can camwhore! I miss camwhore sessions. ):

Pink Mist

2009-06-22T01:48:00.003+08:00

Season 2 Episode 16 - It's the End of the World

Exactly 1 week to Common Test and here i am rewatching 1 episode of Grey's after hearing the news about how the 5 interns will lose 1 of its members. ): Its never going to be the same anymore. Its devastating. That is how attached i am to this show.

Derek: You alright?
Meredith: I have a feeling.
Derek: I get those.
Meredith: Yeah?
Derek: Yeah.
Meredith: And?
Derek: If you wait long enough it passes.
Meredith: You promise?
Derek: I promise. (Meredith walks away, and Addison walks in)
Addison: Hey.. what'ya doing?
Derek: Waiting for it to pass.

24th September 2009.
Season 6 Grey's out.
Time to save up for Season 5 DVD. :D

Laughter Day

2009-06-20T00:57:00.009+08:00

1 extra faci at the back with 7 OCs. Noticed who?

Today's library session is the most crappiest and funniest thus far since Sec 4. Really. To think of it, i dont know why we laugh so much and come out with the world crappiest ideas. We must make a vow to move the table 1 fine day. THAT FAR. Not the near near one. Ok?! & great. Now the JJ people in the library will know me for all the wrong reasons. Great Job Shiqah for hugging the table and looking like an idiotic. We were THIS close to be chase out of the library. Thanks.

To ALL: Dont Bully Nadiah! (: [See Nadiah, im doing my job! Trying very very very hard. Haha!] & Me & ZP have already vowed to be nice. Wait and see! (:

I just realized, today only Zhengyi didnt go Korea. Everyone else did.

I MISS KOREA. ):

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TAG REPLIES:

Zakiah: YES! I am definitely getting one at the end of the year. :D

nadiah: haha! That extra faci at least help to make the day so much more enjoyable. haha! Studying can never be more fun lah! Ill cont to try and support you. haha! But no promises. :D

lydia: HAHA! it was HAHAHAHA. We should do this more often! 10 hrs of study can never be boring anymore. :D

zhaopeng: YES! A vow is a vow. Haha! Sorry lah! Whenever i am with Korea people, im reminded of Korea in 1 way or another and how we all got close because of that. Even with the Malay people. Before that Korea trip, we werent close but look where we are now. :D:D:D

nadiah: Yes yes! I remember those days. Haha! We are so mean eh! But i am glad over time we all got closer and become more bonded as MLL class. :D We rock!

zhaopeng: you come out with it lah! haha! SAME HERE!!! Seoul, Incheon Airport is the first airport in the world right?! The latest one in the newspaper. I want to go back there during winter. :D:D:D i hope so. I really hope this friendship will continue to be more bonded over time. Remember you owe me an invitation to your wedding. :D:D:D

Just Get Mad

2009-06-18T02:16:00.003+08:00

So if you're mad get mad
Don’t hold it all inside
Come on and talk to me now
Hey, what you got to hide
I get angry too
Well I’m a lot like you
Girls Aloud - Ill Stand By You

Words that pierce through that strong guarded heart.

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TAG REPLIES:

Marina: Your holiday over already?! When did it even started?! THEN WHEN ARE WE MEETING AGAIN?! ):

derek: (: Stop with your indeed! haha! Yes yes. The best thing, besides Korea. Haha!

lydia: ♥ PSL!! I know. lagu sedih nak mampos. I keep reminiscing about it all. I miss my fellow facis, campers and everyone. ):

nadiah: haha! ive put it up already. And you should go Zhengyi blog to see what he wrote. (:

azimah: You're welcome Azimah. :D

Zakiah: I know! Im shocked that you're sick. ): Take care and im sure there will be another outing very soon. Haha. I dont want to change the song. Its very memorable.

Zhengyi: HELLO ZHENGYI!!!

Lifetime

2009-06-16T23:36:00.002+08:00

It takes a second to say i love you,
but a lifetime to show it.

Project Simply Love

2009-06-15T21:03:00.007+08:00

♥ Project Simply Love

The Best Group to my very eyes. (:

Super Duper Great & Lovely campers!!!!

& all this cannot happen without these people behind the scene! (:

I was mentally prepared that maybe this camp will be something ill regret or just not enjoy. I was preparing for the worst. Yet, not even once did i regret joining this camp. This is my 1st time being a facilitator and i am more motivated than ever to continue doing so if given the right opportunity. The feeling of being able to impact their lives, in any way possible, is just pure bliss. Seeing how the campers in just 2 days open up so much to you when at first they simply thought this camp will be a dread, was ahhh!

Every single event was memorable, right down to the outdoor cooking, to the preparation for the graduation night and everything. I am so impressed by how the group could work together and follow the lead. Me and Angeline was just proud that the group can still be united and together even without the help of us. They listen to one another and even with conflicts, its resolved quickly. That was makes me love my group. They are just wonderful bunch of people.

I am very sure, this camp too has impacted all involved. The facilitators especially. (: I am really proud of how far we have gone. Despite all the difficulties, we all overcome it by the end. Slow and steady indeed win the race. & To my Group 3 fellow facilitators, thank you for helping me whenever i need the help. Thank you Angeline, Chee Yew, Eugene & Lay Tian. :D

Personally, this has been a growing experience for me. I have done things i myself never thought i will. I have been wanting to learn cycling but there are always reasons or excuses for me to avoid it. But, because of this, i feel the need to learn and just try. Here i am, done cycling and cycled on the road with big humongous vehicles, something i never thought doing in 2009. Maybe future, but just not now. The night walk was really an eye-opener. I dont mind the dark, as long as i am not alone. Thats all. Yet, here, i have to walk close to 10 mins all alone in the dark path with almost pitch parkness. Despite being so afraid, i did it and all this will not be possible for all those who encourages me to push on. Thank you. You know who you are. [:

Finally, to the organizing committee, you guys have worked your ass off and ive seen how much effort being put in and i salute you all for making this camp successful. Imperfectly perfect as wht Nicholas mentioned. We all do recognize the efforts you guys put in. Its just wonderful job you all. (: Things couldnt get any better. :D Especially for Graduation Night. hahaha! Really depicts JJ Night and it was sooooo fun to be THAT high. :D:D:D

So, to all involved, every single one of you, thank you for making this camp an enriching one and this is will always be remembered.

To campers, remember what ive said during the whole camp especially the E-web (which to me, was the highlight of the whole camp together with the song singing session! & fyi, i hate ewebs. But this, it was perfect.). Stay strong, persevere and continue to be a better person. Life is too short for regrets. (: I love you all my dear campers. Wei Ming, Jin Xiang, Gary, Hwa Hwee, Shima & Wada. Thank you all 6 for making my job as a faciliator to you all the best damn thing ever.

I miss the camp already and you you you you you you.

Oh. I dont look 18?! ):

A Little Escape

2009-06-12T12:30:00.002+08:00

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4 Days.

A Little Escape.

May it goes smoothly.

May this impact my life even in a little way.

After that 4 Days, realities will/must set in immediately.

I need this escape.

Note

2009-06-11T04:33:00.001+08:00

Note to self:

Do not succumb to emotions too easily.
Do not let it affect everything else in your life.
Cry all you want, then let it go.

I wish it was that easy.

Cycling Part 2

2009-06-10T23:22:00.002+08:00

We are ready for Night Cycling.

Today i ate 1 Curry Puff and Oreo Crush for the whole day till Midnight.

That explains..

& I travel the whole of Singapore, almost in 1 day.

Im beat tired. Good Night.

H1 down, H2 here i come

2009-06-09T16:09:00.001+08:00

Finally H1 paper are all over. [: I dont wish to comment how not confident i was with my History. I just hope that i can get better than a normal D. Which.. could be impossible. Now time is indeed running up.

I just want everything to be ok. Everything.

Start now

2009-06-08T21:37:00.003+08:00

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I cannot retain ANY more history stuff into this tiny brain of mine. Whatever i have been studying since friday isnt stored in my head. It goes away as soon as the day is over. I just hope whatever i memorized today stays in there until tomorrow. I just cannot study anymore. I have yet to complete reading Arab-Israeli conflict and re-memorize them.

The only source of my happiness currently is the random shopping, the sweets and shows.

I still have yet to start revising my Chemistry proper. The fact that i have time but i just cant make my brain sit down with me and study with me is just annoying. The time that i have is not like one full day of mugging but hours here and there in between outings. ): Seriously Shiqah, when are you going to just settle down?! ARGH.

Start now. Start now. Start now. Start now. Start now.

Cycling!

2009-06-05T22:34:00.003+08:00

Most tiring cycling ever.
I hurt myself.
I laugh and fell. Thanks eh Fatin.
I fell gracefully, mind you. Hah!

1 more cycling session and night cycling.. Here i come. [:

Back to serious mugging.
General Paper on Monday.
History Paper on Tuesday.
Wish me luck.

Today mark the 6th month

2009-06-04T11:50:00.002+08:00

2nd last day in Korea.

Most merepek thing we did there.

4th June 2008. 6 months ago was the last day we were in Korea.

May we all continue to be friends like how we all are now. (:

The Sun Shines

2009-06-03T22:45:00.002+08:00

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I am truly glad for everything that happen today.
Everything..

May everything continue to get better.
May everyone continue to stay strong.
May this brings out the best in everyone.

Take care. Stay strong. Remember Allah.
We will all stay with each other. No matter what happen.
InsyaAllah.

♥ you all.

[:

2009-06-02T00:51:00.000+08:00

Somewhere, somehow, it must end

2009-05-31T18:32:00.003+08:00

Agree. It indeed cause more unwanted trouble.
Its a repetition.
And it make more sense to do what i need to do.
Somewhere, somehow, it must end.

Thanks for all the support friends.
And the honesty.
And the feedbacks. (:

Wish me luck.

Thank you (:

2009-05-31T00:07:00.006+08:00

Today. I feel nothing but proud of what i did.
18 years and finally, ive done what many others would have already learnt.
I shall savour this moment.

Thank you to all those who understands truly how much this means to me, after all those years of procrastinating and fears.
Thank you to all those who motivates me and encourages me throughout the whole 9km cycle, knowing how afraid and unsure i am and always there to make sure my safety is of utmost priority.
Thank you.. for making me join this camp. Because if not, this, will not happen. (:

Thank you for making THIS possible. You know who you are.

You, you did great too. Dont be so down and feel like you're a failure. To many others, you are NOTHING but great. Trust me. So, dont doubt yourselves. At all. You are not a failure. As friends, we are here to support you all the way. To not make you feel like ure everything but great. So, you can depend on us.

Im exhausted. Today has been productive and today, ive learnt a lot. Positive and negative. Friendships forged. Total fun. Total madness. Total woohoo. Not everything is pleasant. But we as human beings, we can go so far. Sometimes, too much, its suffocating. (: But this camp, im sure, will be an eye opener and an enriching experience.

My friend, we must meet and sort it all out. Eventhough you say you're alright, i feel unsafe.

For once, after so long, i feel real happiness because i achieve something. Just for once. See, the significance? I achieve it because finally, i know, i can. (:

AISYAH! HI5! :D Take care eh you of ure bruises. ):

I will...Not.

2009-05-29T23:39:00.002+08:00

I will continue to pray for the best.
I will continue to hope.
I will learn to stay positive.

But i know.. ill fall short.
I feel like i am losing grip of myself too.

Last Dance Performance

2009-05-29T02:36:00.004+08:00

Final Performance for the J2s.

We were almost all once nothing. No experience, too stiff.
I am proud to be where i am now.
Definitely a journey worth remembering.
Despite the ups and downs. (:

All the best for the future Tarianos.
Aza for As!

End School

2009-05-28T02:59:00.001+08:00

This will be random..

BUT I END MY TERM 2 ON THURSDAY! [:
So much of friday having half day. School end at 1030am.
Because every friday.. My lesson begins at 1030am.

Yes, i should just skip school.
I know i know.

Dear Friend

2009-05-27T22:32:00.002+08:00

Dear Friend,

I dont know what is happening. But this i know.. I am extremely worried. Those bits and pieces of smses that you sent leave me feeling afraid, worried and all i can do is just pray for your safety and for you to make the best choice you feel is right. I wish i can be of help. I know something is wrong. I have an uneasy feeling. ):

Ya Allah, guide us all to the right path.

Today, 27th May 2009

2009-05-26T23:57:00.004+08:00

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Today could not have been any worst..

Thanks Yana for dragging me to watch the Badminton's match because the experience.. its priceless. Seeing your own JJ people playing, especially your own classmate, fighting like hell to score, its such an honour. 28-26 was the guys final score. 24-22 was the girls final score. It was that tight.. & seeing Hong Bo teared, it just breaks our hearts. They did superbly well and truthfully, ive not seen such badminton game played at all. We sure did make RJ fight like hell to retain their title. So congrats Hong Bo and team. (: You guys have won.. Seriously, after seeing you guys play, i have that interest in Badminton. Hoho. Thank you for making the school proud.

Maths results. 08S32! We have to buck up! We have to step out from this and shine again. We were once the top few and we can be there back. This upcoming Mid-Years.. Lets work together and show what we can really do.

Now i have to mug. I feel like i just had hangover. My brain is exhausted, my mind is not working right. & i have dance tomorrow. Thursday just come ASAP so i can get this all over and done with. I need to just stop everything and focus on my exams already. It sucks when im not focusing. I have PSL to go and i wish, that i can and know how to balance my time.

Wow. It feels so much better writing.

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George: You didn't do me a favor, you just made it clear that I'm still me. The almost guy. All that seperates me from the rest of my class is one point? One point? I mean, it would've been okay if it was 50 points or even ten points, but one? That means that it was right there, it was in my hand, and I let it slip away. I didn't wanna know that. Do you get that? That knowing that if I had just check A instead of B, that one point seperates me from freedom. I've been running my tail off, busting my ass to make up for one lousy point, proving... You didn't do me a favor. Don't kid yourself.
Lexie: At least you know you have what it takes.
George: Yeah.

Greatest.. Or not

2009-05-24T23:33:00.005+08:00

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The greatest thing u can ever learn is just to love..

and be loved in return.

The Power of Denial

2009-05-23T04:13:00.002+08:00

Why am i hoping too much?
Or wishing it will happen..
Or wanting it to be true, badly.
When i know too well, it will never.

Ya Allah, provide me the strength.

AJJC - 9 JAM

2009-05-23T01:26:00.006+08:00

JJC Bising Giler people. :D

Budak kampong CSS yang sungguh unglam. :D

AJJC - 9 JAM

♥

Kudos to the cast, crew and all involved.

Esp to Fatin Liyana as the teacher.

Iezah as the ASM.

Zakiah as the Props.

Wani as the Sounds.

Well, & ALL ESP TO THE JJC CAST AND CREW!

It was a joy watching you guys. And i was reminded about my own PPP last year. Eventhough it wasnt a sweet one, it was a journey i wouldnt mind doing again. The experience is worthwhile and when you think of it again.. Only the best momories stick by. And thats what counts. (:

Today, after countless days, i feel alive. For that 3-4 hours.

So, thank you all.

PS: FACEBOOK DOESNT ALLOW ME TO UPLOAD FABULOUS PICS IN HUGE NUMBERS. Lydia, you're lucky today. :D

Please

2009-05-21T22:18:00.003+08:00

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Just let this week disappear.

Let it be gone.

Everything erased and none of it actually happened.

Please.

Rainy Days

2009-05-18T20:40:00.005+08:00

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Meeting the tiny crazy girl.

Rainy days.

Long bus rides.

Humming to favourite tunes.

Perfect remedy for a terrible, horrific day.

Check this blog out:
http://thingsweforget.blogspot.com/

The Tomorrows

2009-05-16T00:38:00.000+08:00

"Did you say it? 'I love you.
I don't ever want to live without you.
You changed my life.'
Did you say it?
Make a plan. Set a goal.
Work toward it, but every now and then, look around;
Drink it in 'cause this is it.
It might all be gone tomorrow."

NOW OR NEVER

2009-05-15T23:32:00.004+08:00

Familiar?

Season 5 Grey's Anatomy is undoubtly..

THE BEST SEASON. [:

The final 5 minutes was filled with 'OMG' that i cannot cry because its too heartbreaking. The first 90 minutes, well.. it was worth the tissues.

Bottomline.. Season 1 -5. Characters grew so much. Everything is loved.

The downside, now i have no motivation to study, realizing that i have till Sept 2009 to wait for Season 6 and get all my questions answered and to have Season 5 DVDs.

I am beginning to love Meredith. :D

CATCH GREY'S ANATOMY PEOPLE!!

FOODS!

2009-05-14T02:53:00.002+08:00

More updates with pictures soon.

I miss life.

Colourful

2009-05-13T23:23:00.003+08:00

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Life is..

Well..

I wish it is this colourful.

Mother's Day

2009-05-10T00:28:00.004+08:00

SELAMAT HARI IBU. [:
Mothers are irreplaceable. Sayang Mama.

Callie's dad: You don't have children, do you.
Chief: No I don't
Callie's dad: No you don't, because if you did... Your
daughter's a grown woman that means nothing. She's my child. It's like blood
running thorugh my veins. It never goes away, the love, the need to protect
them from everything, everything, even from themselves. They grow up, they
move out, they change, become people you don't even recognise, make
decisions. And they think you don't love them because they don't understand.
But it's the opposite. You find for them always, you never
surrender, when your child's on the line, you never surrender.

Family is everything.

SURPRRRIIIISE!

2009-05-09T23:41:00.006+08:00

Impromptu.

Totally blur.

But it was a total success. :D

I was drunk.

We were lame.

We embarassed ourselves.

But i still love you all.. all the same.

Happy Advance Birthday Crazy, Shopaholic Fiza.

Dont go clubbing.

Or ull get drunk. See what happen to me.

Bring me shopping one day. (:

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OH! STAR TREK was SUPERB. I totally dont understand the story line and must be told all about it the whooole time. But it was worth it. I have been watching movies that i thought or would not imagine wasting money watching in cinema. But yes, i did. 4 movies in 1 month. Angel & Demons, Wolverine soon. :D

Suntec City is a disaster. I detest going there, especially when you are rushing to get things and the shops are at different towers. Its beyond annoying. But well.. Its all worth it.

Thanks eh for the LJS. & for making me all drunk-y, drunk-ard, and all the weird english words i created today.

Lacking behind in studies. ARGH!<p>

100th Episode

2009-05-08T04:11:00.000+08:00

100th episode. :D

"What a Difference a Day Makes"

& its true. What a difference a day makes..

SEASON FINALE NEXT WEEK!

My Makciks

2009-05-07T01:13:00.003+08:00

Here i am, 1am in the morning.

Browsing through all pictures.

And 2008 was the sweetest.

Too much memories.

Whatever it is,

Whatever happens,

Whatever we are all going through,

Even when we all are in doubts, fear, happy, sad...

I love you all, my makciks.

I looked forward to school, because of you guys.

Let it continue to be that way.

I recall how once, i was having really very bad fever but i insist on going to school. Being very sour in the morning.. But the existence of this very people, i managed to survive through the ordeal. & we even spend hours just talking nonsence.

Those innocent (haha!), stupid, total merepek, gila nak mampos days. :D

With countless flings.. Haha!

May 2009.

6 months to As.

Chasing Pavements

2009-05-05T21:00:00.005+08:00

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Should I give up,

Or should I just keep chasin' pavements?

Even if it leads nowhere

Or would it be a waste?

Adele - Chasing Pavements

Harsh reality.
Embrace? Or crumble?

100th episode of Grey's this week.
The only thing im looking forward to, besides the usual meet up with bestest people. (:

Song Beneath The Song

2009-04-30T23:50:00.002+08:00

credits to deviantart.com

Song that you know by heart.

Humming the tune.

Smiling to youself.

EMBRACE THE HOLS, MUGGERS.

Happy Birthday Jerome!

2009-04-27T19:22:00.007+08:00

Original 08S32. 15 lovelies. :D

The people behind the really funny-lovely-best gift ever! Ok, Yana did the most work. Iezah did the superly Jerome-like Kindergarden drawing. (ITS ADORABLE BTW). But hey, its fun to take credit. :D Dont you think so?

THIS IS HILARIOUS!
Everyone's expression tells a different story! :D

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY JEROME!

Ok, fine belated, by 1 day. Hopefully you will share the chocolate hamper with us. Ehem ehem. And eat it at an extremely slow pace. Must make sure it last till Alevel. :D Keep the pink ribbons and the purple drawing of you. Stay sane, keep your lameness and act cute to yourself. Being 18 comes with a cost.. Lose that part of yourself, to keep us all in sanity. Please. Oh Jerome, stop trying to fight back with me. No arguments. Your GP Essay skills will NOT get any better by argueing with me. Dejun, this goes to you too.

But the essence of it all, JEROME! BE MATURE. :D Hope you truly enjoyed that gift. & really glad that you are surprised.

♥ 08S32 loves you!

More pictures in my facebook.
Hysterical people.
I miss such sessions with these bunch of lunatics. :D
Well, im part of them too. Haha.

KEPPEL BAY & NPAP & LIBRARY

2009-04-25T22:54:00.004+08:00

After 2 whole months, (I even though the last time i saw her was last year, like 2008!), we finally meet up! :D Keppel Bay was so uninviting with the sun showing no mercy. & it seems like my life is nothing compared to hers. None of my life stories were THAT interesting. ): I lead a boring life!

Fatin Liyana, thank you for the wonderful gift. :D Really, its wonderful. I am listening to the songs now and i am reminded so much that has happen. Everything from Day 1 back in the Mendaki days. Its amazing how we pull through every obstacle when many others might have easily given up. We went through too much crap together. We both eventually change for the better and look where we are now. Standing proud. I love you Fatin. :D I dont show it often, but yes i do. Yes, you can be the godmother of my 1st child.. Happy?! [What a request Fatin.] Haha! & Fatin, stay strong. You will pull through.

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Studying in library today was productive! Minus the 1st hour of total gossiping with Nadiah and thanks eh for all of that. Haha! Zubbie really cannot get any lamer. I am surprised at my tolerance level whenever i am with her. Really. I think i am too noisy whenever i am in the library. ): How?

PS: The songs playing is really full of memories. Oh my, Fatin, should i kill you for making me tear up?! Haha.

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Last week NPAP at HTA:

How unfair it is. He wore the Number 1 uniform. His passion for his CCA in nothing, nothing compared to mine. Haha.

Makciks

2009-04-25T01:32:00.012+08:00

Guess who is who.
Ill give you 1 sweet if you can guess.

This picture is not true. NOT.
This is what we do 1am in the morning.

Shiqah Sayang Korang Makciks yang sungguh desperate. :D

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Tag replies:

Zakiah: ♥ you! Tag more on my blog! :D Toink toink is what?! Yes, Taken was great! The action-packed stuff at least. But the violence, not my kind. Haha. When is our next movie date?! Yes, Shiqah rindu Zakiah many many. Happy? & Thats a lie! Iezah drew it you evil... I put THAT picture then you know. :D Takot jugak ye awak..

adeline: HEY! Where did you get my blog link?! Thanks! You too. (:

nadiah: hahahahahaa! Its a nice angle picture. Dont think you're ribena very the cute eh. Please. Haha.

iezah: I DONT! NOW YOU'RE LYING! Dosa.. :D

We Do What We Want To

2009-04-24T21:00:00.001+08:00

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Déjà vu

It was something i wish others wouldnt have to experience. The pain, the tears, everything. It was painful, i recalled. It was not something i want to feel again, but i felt it today. The whole process keep replaying in my head. Yet, i am glad it all happen. It makes us grow out of it. We all learn something from the experience and grew, and that is something i dont wish to trade for anything else. Yes, there will be misses. It never fades away. But thats what makes everything else stronger.

Taken

2009-04-23T22:20:00.003+08:00

Totally disturbing but i enjoyed watching the movie tremendously. Besides the extreme violence (too many shootings) which makes me and Darsh have headaches, i think it was good. The plot especially but not the ending. I think it was too abrupt and doesnt have a proper link to the whole story.

But this totally unplanned and random outing was much needed. Coincidentally, we three had depressing moments, the same day. (: & being with them, it was blissful.

Noticed that i have been watching movies? Its really a great way to destress. [Esp after i am very sure i will not do well for Complex Test.] Life doesnt always go the way we want. That is why God created friends like them. Thanks guys. You guys are the best. [Chey chey chey!]

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Tag replies:

Yana: Yes. [: Must watch. MUST!

Zhaopeng: Wah. Yes, i get it. Sure, treasure & cherish right?

Zakiah: All there. (: When will we start taking pictures again? I miss posting pictures of us. ):

Possible Mistakes

2009-04-22T14:20:00.003+08:00

In Maths Lesson yesterday.

Last week outing!

Mr Yuen postponed the SPA Trial. (:
I am screaming in happiness. So tomorrow, just 1 test!
Ace Complex Numbers people. All the best.

In Denial

2009-04-18T00:10:00.000+08:00

I miss the random moments in school.

When nothing bothers us.

Studies, CCA, life.

I miss the kecohness.

This is so sudden.

Or maybe we are too busy.

Or maybe i choose to be in denial that this is happening.

Wonderwall

2009-04-17T23:09:00.005+08:00

MOVIES:

Best movie for stress people. I dislike Zac Efron but the movie is superbly funny.

Must watch.

Either you like it or you dont. Eye-opener.

2 Movies in 1 Day.

With the most lame-merepek-crap people around.

& Mini Birthday Celebration.

Love you guys! :D

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Tag replies:

nadiah: Haha. Who doesnt eh.

zhaopeng: Thanks. :D Haha. Now you miss Korea more after the video. Right?

Zakiah: Yes. ):

FIZA!: For you no need eh. You will finish everything up and blame me for making you so fat. :D Amai doing fine kat Melbourne. Sms her!

3 Birthdays

2009-04-14T22:00:00.003+08:00

Proper update soon. :D

♥ HAPPY LEGAL 18 AZIMAH!

& Happy 17th Birthday Syazwan!

& Happy Advance 17th Birthday Nifail!

Please hope that i pass my GP Test and not the bottom 10 of the class. I need to meet my friends this friday and i cannot be in the remedial class. Ok, thats a pathetic reason. But heck.

Now i am exhausted.

Food

2009-04-13T23:26:00.006+08:00

& with the other delicious food, i forsee that i will gain weight by next week. :D The outings this and next week will be full of catching up and eating at random places and definitely increase my chances of finally being normal, and not underweight. Wish me luck. (:

I know ill fail my History SBQ. That is the only way, so that i can be in the lower band and get more practice with the right pace, and well, yes, because of the teacher too. I cannot study under the higher band teacher. The lectures last year was unproductive to me such that i have to resort studying all by myself back at home.. So, for the first time, please hope that i fail.

How am i suppose to get money? Hmph.

After 5 months..

2009-04-12T00:19:00.003+08:00

After watching the video,

(Derek! Great job on the video!)

SHIQAH RINDU KOREA!!

& of course the company, 22 students & 3 teachers.

Setbacks

2009-04-11T19:23:00.006+08:00

My current addiction.

NOR AMALINA, BACK IN MELBOURNE! Please buy me more of this the next time you come back to Singapore! I have been eating the chocolate at extremely slow rate because you cant get them in Singapore and i love the chocs so much! & i miss you Amai! Your random smses always cheer me up! :D

My cat has been fine since Friday. She is active back and sleeping everywhere, even on my files. So, its a good sign and hopefully everything goes well. A checkup this Friday will determine it all for now. (:

PW results. Not bad, nor that great. Below expectation. In fact, the school % of A is way below what other JC in Singapore are getting. I am not putting the blame on anyone. But the facts are there. Nothing can be done, no one should be blamed. Its time to move on. But what makes us angry and sad is how unfair it was for us that even he get the same grade as us, even when we filed in irregularity report, when he caused too much pain to us. Heck, its time to let go. Forget it all.

One setback after another. I shall live my life day by day.

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TAG REPLIES:

zhaopeng: haha! Shiqah cannot pull off the feminine and lady-like side please. Thanks! (:

AISYAH: Yes! SYF is over but its still exciting eh.

Lydia: Done!

Sj: THANKS! (:

derek: You always freak out. Haha. Thanks! (:

zubbie: YES! SAME HERE! WHEN CAN I MEET EACH AND EVERY SINGLE ONE OF YOU?!

TARIANOS - SYF

2009-04-09T18:46:00.000+08:00

'Jurong Junior College, Silver'

Those 4 words left us so silent, it kills. We werent sad, not were we happy. It was blank. It was moments of no emotions. Only the scream and happiness of those satisfied with their results were heard.

Nevertheless, after watching the video, i saw how much we put in this. How hard we have tried to work towards perfection. To get it right. To my eyes, we were perfect. Our steps, the cheorography, the theme, it was right. We just lack energy. The only setbacks. But recalling the journey of it all.. It was memorable.

The 14 wonderful, lovely, extremely kecoh girls.

With only 2 who has SYF background (or dance), it was a struggle from the beginning. The difficulty to get the steps right, the gaya. It was. But we have grown from being so stiff to people who can actually dance. That 6 months was a life experience. I have learnt so much and enjoyed the journey tremendously.

Thank you girls for allowing me to be part of this journey.
Thank you Fiqah especially for scolding, loving us like your own kids. (:
Thank you Kak Mas for the wonderful cute mentel dance.
Thank you Cikgu for the advice and the motivation.

The 8 macho guys.

Whom i thought were quiet and innocent bunch of people. Until their real personality shows. The 2 months since they joined us was amazing. Just 2 months but they grew so much. Only 3 had dance background. But all of them improved tremendously and i remember the day we practice till 930pm. The girls saw their determination and how much they have improved. & that itself, make me very proud of them.

Thank you friends.

& the supporters! Thank you for coming down and staying with us till the results. Thank you for the encouragement and believing in us. & constantly reassuring us and bringing back the confidence in us. Thank you for it all. (:

Not to mention, i love the eye makeup.
The costume and props looks incredible on stage.

I will miss the practice till late at night.
I will miss the company.
I will miss all the food we always share with one another.
I will miss taking those hysterical videos.

I am so glad we still have Atrika DanceFest. Hopefully this whole team of 22 will continue to join us for it.

Bad Timing

2009-04-08T22:07:00.002+08:00

SYF TODAY.

PW RESULTS TOMORROW.

'Life couldnt get any better.'

Give me this 1 day to reflect.

Bottomline, no high hopes.

Or disappointment sets in, even when you try SO hard not to let it happen.

May tomorrow be a better day to all.

Tarianos

2009-04-04T21:00:00.003+08:00

WE CAN DO IT. WE WILL.

GOLD.

8TH APRIL 2009.

Faith. Believe. Perfection. Hardwork. Fun. Enjoy.

One Team, Tarianos

Tarianos

2009-03-31T21:25:00.004+08:00

This is it.
Its now or never.

All i can think about is how i wouldnt want to disappoint those who has been working hard, working their very best, putting in everything they can. Here i am, struggling so hard trying to get it right, to prevent making the same mistake over and over again. To just get it. To not disappoint you guys.

I hope by 8th April 2009, my very best will match to the standard.
I know how much this means to you guys, so i will not stop working hard.
This is it. It is no longer i want a Gold. It is we need the Gold.

7 more days.
Its short.
But we will make the leap.

14 Girls, 8 Boys.
Tarianos.
We will shine.

InsyaAllah..

DARSINI! (:

2009-03-28T21:15:00.001+08:00

THE LEGAL AGE IS HERE! (:

May we meet in due time and catch up.
I miss you!

Elevator Love Letter

2009-03-27T19:38:00.001+08:00

Doesnt matter how tough we are. Trauma always leaves a scar. It follows us home, it changes our lives. Trauma messes everybody up. But maybe thats the point. All the pain, and the fear, and the crap. Maybe going through all of that is what keeps us moving forward. Its what pushes us. Maybe we have to get a little messed up..... before we can step up.

Season 5 Episode 19.
Easily said, best episode.
This will be my All-Time Favourite.
Bittersweet episode.

Love.

The horrible news, 3 more weeks before the new episode.
4 more episodes till the end of season 5.

Makes me push aside all the pain, misery i have been feeling this whole week.
Dont worry, im fine. (: